okay so its 3am and i should be sleeping but my brain won't shut up so here we are lol

do you ever think about how weird it is that we're all just... here? like on the internet specifically. like i have friends i've never met and they know me better than people i see every day. that's either beautiful or deeply messed up and i can't decide which

i keep changing my layout because i think if i get the colors right something will click into place. like the outside will match the inside finally. i know that sounds dumb. it IS dumb. but i keep doing it anyway

anyway new year's is coming and everyone's asking about resolutions. mine is probably to stop pretending i'm fine when i'm not fine but also to stop making that my whole personality because that's exhausting too. there's gotta be a middle ground between "everything is great!!!" and "everything is on fire" right?? RIGHT???

idk. i just wanted to write something real for once instead of surveys and bulletins. if you read this far you're probably one of like three people and i love you for it 💜

gonna go listen to helena on repeat until i fall asleep. don't judge me.

xo munchkin